Saturday, December 14, 2013

The Day that Changed Me...FOREVER

      I still remember it very clearly, the events and days following, not so much. November 7, 2013 I will never forget. I remember our conversation that morning before he left for work. It was our casual poke fun at eachother, watch cartoons with Mattie, listen to him go up the stairs, and hear his truck pull away. Sounds I miss very much. I drove to school, like any other day, and after my first two classes I bumped into the boys. Yes, the boys I had just got to know two months prior when I joined the Snow College Rodeo Team. I didnt know anyone when I joined the team and it had only taken me a few weeks to call them all family. It is unusual that I ran into them, it's unusual if I run into anyone on the team at school and not at practice. In fact there are several very unusual things that have happend in Troy's accident. I remember everything in that moment with the boys. They told me they had just talked to Troy and they were all going to Goshen that night to buck horses. I laughed and said that I was glad I was always the last to know. We talked about their plans and a few other odds and ends. It was Thursday, my late day at school. I thought I wouldnt be home in time to make it over with them to Goshen, so I wasnt to worried about them leaving me home. Besides I had a family baby shower that I probably should attend. When  I headed for home I called Troy, just like always. It was our normal "i'm on my way home conversation." I was suprised that the boys hadnt got there yet and he was still home. Looking back I want that phone call back, there is so many things I want to tell Troy, so many things. I remember driving down Nephi canyon on my way home. I remember the sun setting, the song on the radio, and myself thinking what I was going to get Troy for Christmas. It hit me like a ton of bricks! The horse they were going to buck out that night was what I was going to get him. We had tried the paint a couple weeks prior and Troy really did like him, we just couldnt afford the asking price. Now, I had a waiver I could pull to get that bucking horse. I could trade my old high school rodeo horse to the owner of the bucking horse for his daughter to use. I had decided I would see what Troy said when he got home about the horse. If he still liked it, then I would sneak behind his back, trade for the horse and totally suprise him for Christmas.
       The phone call. I was sitting at the baby shower when a unknown number called me. I usually let my voicemail pick them up since I dont know who it is. However, I walked outside and answered. The voice on the other end was familar, but I couldnt really put a face to the voice.
 "JaBoe, this is Susan Ogden,"
 "Who?"
 "Susan Ogden" My heart sank as I realized Susan was from Goshen and that was where Troy was. I knew something was not right.
 "Troy is being life flighted to Utah Valley and you need to head there" I went into shock, I thought this has got to be a joke and with out knowing it my biggest fear had happened. "He was in a horse accident."
      I told her thank you and walked inside to get my mother, brother, and daughter. When I walked back in all I could think was I needed to keep a straight face. In order for my face to stay straight I had to clench it between my two hands. When I reached my mother I couldnt even spit the words out. I tried with all my might not to cause a scene, but when my mother freaked out, everyone freaked out. I was finally able to sqeak that we needed to leave because Troy was being life flighted. Running to my mothers car I called Troy's sister Emily. She lives pretty close to the hospital and I knew that I wouldnt make it there before life flight. I told her that I honestly didnt know what she should expect, all I knew is that he was being life flighted. I hung up and immedaitly called Troy's parents Bonnie and Glen. Of course they didnt answer the home phone or their cell phone. I told my mom to drive me to the car wash in hopes to find them there, washing Bonnie's bus, which they had previously told me they were heading to go do. As we closed in on Sinclair, no bus, no luck, and no time. We dropped my brother and daughter off with my grandma who happened to be in town. Then we flew to Provo.
      I had no idea if Troy had been taken to a hospital first or just exaclty what was going on. I called his sister in-law LeeAnn. She responded that she was at work, the Nephi Hospital. I asked if Troy had been in and when she responded,"No", I told her we were heading to Utah Valley. She left work immediatly and called her husband to find his parents.
        Colten called as soon as he made it to Mona, you see it is suprising that even Susan was able to get cell service in Goshen, because no one does. When Colten called he told me exactly what had happened. They were heading to our house to drop off Troy's truck and horse. I didnt need to ask what horse it was that had done this to Troy. I knew from the start it was Jack. The half percheron that Troy had for about two years. He is by far the biggest horse we have owned. Troy roped bulls on him. I cried about this for days, wondering why he couldnt of just caught Sadie or Star.  He told me Troy had been rolled on and drug. He said he was breathing, his vitals were stable, and that is all he knew. He said Troy was coming in to pick him up off the paint bucking horse. He was just getting ready to make the jump to Troy's horse when the bucking horse tripped Jack and sent Troy rolling. He rolled head over heals. He was then hung up in his left stirrup and drug about 50 ft. It is very critical to understand that if Troy had been drug another two feet, he would not of left that arena. All of Troy's head injuries came from being drug and its hard for me to except that I wasnt there to stop the horse.
       When I got to the emergency room in Provo my mother and I had to jump down a 10 ft wall because I parked in the wrong place. We were ushered into a room where Emily awaited. When Travis came in, a spoke person for the hospital, he gave us a briefing. He said Troy was getting a CT done, he possibly had a lot of broken ribs, broke collar bone, severe head trauma, broke neck, with a high chance of being paralayzed. With in the first three days we really didnt know just exactly what was wrong. One by one family filled this little waiting room, where Travis would occasionaly pop in and tell us things they were discovering. They led us into a different part of the hospital and eventually just immediate family into another little area to discuss all that they knew. Dr. Bishop asked us what happened, we told him the story. He said that Troy had broke his collar bone, top two ribs (it takes A LOT of force to break your first two ribs), he had skull and facial fractures, brain damage, a collapsed and bruised lung. He said he was going to show us where Troy would be. When we turned the corner from our meeting room, I saw Troy. It was his reflection from the mirror in his room. An image I will never forget. I dont even know if I kept walking or if LeeAnn packed me but somehow I made it to the side of his bed.  I remember LeeAnn holding me as we stood over Troy. Honestly, he was perfect. He looked perfect. If it wasnt for the tubes sticking from his mouth, you would of never of known something so tragic had just happend. Im not sure how long we all stood there. Im not even sure who was there. All I know is from that moment on we were venturing into UNKNOWN TERRITORY.

Monday, December 17, 2012

Hello.

Now, now confidence I've been waiting on you. You left me high and dry on top of a bronc. You quit and ran out like a bad romance. Its been a long two years without you. I haven't give up on trying to ride but by hell it hasn't been my time.
One horse is all it takes to stomp your confidence. I fought that mare more than once and lost each time. I got madder then hell, bawled my eyes out, and laughed at myself to try and get my confidence back. After the fifth time in 2 months that I hit the ground on that mare,  I didn't get back on. Ill rightfully admit I was to scared. It hurts to lose your confidence. Sure I have climbed on many different horses in the past two years since the tragedies but it just hasn't been the same. I was scared, scared that I wasn't half the rider I used to be. Well after tonight I have proved to myself that I AM BACK! Confidence came back and flushed threw my vein's. When my horse would shy away from a task or gave me grief I didn't ignore it, like i have been doing. I spurred that filly and made her do what I wanted. I'm done being the passenger that wicked bronc made me think I was two years ago. I've let two years go by of doing whatever the horse wanted just so i didn't get thrown off. No gut hooks, goofing off, no aggressive riding at all. But tonight that change. I don't know what made it different tonight, maybe I just got fed up.
Or maybe I finally understood that you cant ride em all. Sometimes you need one to get by ya so you can move on. I tip my hat that mean old mare.
I used to jump on any horse at any given time. Trust me, I've rode plenty of crazy's. Yet just that one horse got me down and in a rut. Two long years of climbing out of a hole, and it feels wonderful!
Xoxo Bo

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Recent questions.....

        Everyone lately has been asking me one major question. I actually enjoy very much answering. I recently lost 40 lbs- and counting. You see there comes a time in your life when your a better roper then you are at working ground crew, but you always feel obligated to work ground because your a pretty "hefty" gal. Anyhow, I got on this terrible birth control for 3 years and slowly but surely I just started gaining weight. It wasn't a drastic increase, so I never really noticed it I guess? Plus when your traveling a million miles an hour in ten different directions its easy to just let yourself go. WELL, I got sick of it!!!! I joined a bootie buster group in my home town and started to gain my motivation back! It was more like a support group with a competition. Who ever lost the highest % of their body weight would be declared the winner!
     This journey to a healthier me started about 14 weeks ago. The group I joined was what I wanted fundamentally from a diet program. Now to the questions everyone has been asking.... I get emails, texts, remarks about my "secrets" and today you should consider yourself lucky because I'm going to disclose my top secrets to you!
    What I loved about this program was the rules were very strict! Only diet and exercise. You could not use anything to help you aid in losing weight except diet and exercise. So I'm sorry if you thought there was some magical product I used. But here is what I did do
      1. "Wake up in the morning feeling like P-diddy"-Kesha, Seriously when you get up in the morning feel like a rock star, think positive! Then grab your self a 32 ounce jug of water and start drinking! WATER< WATER< WATER, until you feel you might drown. 64 ounces is the minimum your body needs each day.
      2. Exercise, with this support group I joined they also logged our exercise minutes. I will be the first to tell you I wasn't at the top of the leader board with exercise. This being said I always keep in mind this simple rule, 90% diet and 10% exercise. My excuse for not losing weight before was that I didn't have TIME. Well guess what dolls, it doesn't matter how much you exercise, if you come home and eat half a pizza for dinner all that exercise doesn't even matter. I think a lot of people eat sweets or other goods and think that they will work it off later. That doesn't work. The simple rule is calories in vs calories out. The exercise I decided to do was run! I started by walking then jogging, and now I can run 3.1 miles without walking! I usually did 30 minutes walks or runs 4x's a week. Late at night, early in the morning, while Troy was feeding the horses on the bench, whenever I could! I also did Zumba once a week, and I love it!
     3. Make one meal a day a salad! That's right eat your veggies and eat as much of them as you want! I always made lunch my salad meal. I skipped the dressing, or chose low fat. I always got chicken or some type of meat! Along with this lettuce isn't really nutritional. So I would opt for spinach whenever possible! Spinach is one of the healthiest things you can consume!
       4. Wheat- I love bread! I didn't miss chocolate, rice crispies, or the staple food at our home, pop tarts, I missed bread! Especially sourdough.... but in my own little study I discovered that if I got my whole grains from other sources instead of wheat, I would maintain and even lose more that week. I looked it up and It is actually on the list as to what scientists think is making America obese. The genetically modified wheat is just different then the old wheat and they are looking into that. Differences aside, I just generally skip the wheat and shoot for other grain sources.
      5. DON'T tell yourself you CANT have it! Every time I told myself that I couldn't have something, I would end up rebelling against myself and caving in. However, when I told myself that i could HAVE it, but instead I am going to CHOOSE not to. This mind set always worked for me. Choose not to have it, instead of cant. With this part of it comes the most important-STAY POSITIVE!
     6. SLEEP, ZZZZZZZ..... even though all nighters are a college students best study time, I always got a good 8 hours of sleep. Reduce the stress in your life and just get some rest! Your body will love you!
   7. Do not starve your self! Talk to a nutritionist and ask how many calories you should consume a day, you can also have them help you construct a menu.
    8. Be nice to people, MEAN people never get any where. General rule of life.
    9. Be supportive of others in the group and share what you know! You can help each other in so many different ways then to mentor them to lose weight.
   10. DROP the diet pills, wraps, whatever else bologna they try to sell you because to keep the weight off its all up to you! Its a mental mind game, habits have to change in order to be a better you. I DO suggest downloading the free app called my fitness pal. It helps you log all your food, can show you were your being deficient, and can help you strive to a better YOU!
   Well I do have a lot of other pointers like eat small meals all day long, get your protein in, cut your carbs down, and a ton more that I try to follow! If you need some motivation just talk to me! I'm great at motivation, honestly! Have a great Christmas dolls!
JaBoe (the new one) (that no longer has to work ground crew) (and feels confident in a dress)
BAD PICTURE, but this is me before a run in the snow! Don't let anything ruin your determination!
Fitting into my high school jeans! BAM! I will admit that they are rather snug, but I got them puppies on!

Wednesday, November 28, 2012

School......

     Range management, that's my major. I love it, I live it, I am passionate about it. I am not passionate about school! I feel like its a waste of money. I have to take a bunch of classes, that even my teachers admit, I will most likely never use again. Math, math will be the end of me! Its so frustrating, its not that I don't understand it, I just don't like "busy" work. Math is "busy" work. I spend the majority of all hunting and horse rides identifying plants. If the zombie attack happens just follow me people, follow me. I can show you what plants to eat, and especially what plants not to eat. I don't know why or when I even became so fascinated with plants. I even have to set up my own greenhouse each winter to plant and take care of my plants. I love growing and arranging flowers. This year I'm going to make my own solar energy and see how that goes. Sometimes I wish I could start my own nursery and have a business of my own. But then that SWEET government job calls my name and I find myself longing to be driving around the desert.
 
This is the look when you tell me I have to go to school for 3 more years. I am pleased to announce however I will be attending BYU. I would love to go to USU however, I can drive to BYU get a better scholarship and Troy keeps his job! Score!

SERVICE

I am not one to brag, but I am one to push.
Push others to do what they feel is right.
The queen of service or the Queen of not being able to say no.... I havent decided,
but after our county fair I found myself very tired! While running around in the chaos I thought I would highlight a few moments of the week.
Monday- My beautiful 17 year old sister competed in her first beauty pageant, I was actually shocked by how well she did. Although she did not win or even place as an attendant she stuck to her cowgirl morals and was a very good sport. I hate judged events, its every ones opinion and they are all different.
Tuesday- My sweet little soon-to-be niece placed in the Princess Fair Rodeo Royalty. She was so excited and it was so fun to see all the little girls in their queening get up'. On this night I competed in the Roping Events. I missed my breakaway calf, Troy missed in the Ribbon Roping for us- we are trying to find our 4th buckle in this event but just haven't got it down the last two years. Troy did great in the team roping! He didn't place but we had a great time with friends and family.
Wednesday- This was the hectic day! Starting at 6 am picking my flowers in our beds so Mattie and Me could enter them in the exhibits. She had a lot of fun making some crazy arrangements but everything ended up receiving a blue ribbon! I entered our exhibits and dashed down to my station. I had to take in all of the crop entries for our fair. All of our wheat received purples! My sister decided to buy a sheep herd this year for her sterling scholar project. Well my cousins and her decided to do an FFA SAE with some of the lambs. Well it was a joke. Ive only ever showed a steer and the expected me to know how to sheer a sheep. All I have to say is what the hell?!?!?! Sheep..... ugghhh.... Wednesday was also the Western Night Rodeo. Guess who is in charge of that? Oh yes, my best friend Mckell, and I was roped into assisting. After about the 50th sheep rider I was drenched in sweat! Candy race, money calf, steer and calf riding. I actually had to make a mad dash to saddle my horse to go chase some cans. Sometimes you have to do things for yourself so that you don't go mad hatter on the situation. Me and my five year old star (the devil mare) had a nice run. She is still learning and I just enjoying giving her another job to do. This day drug on, by the time our chores were complete we got home at one a.m.
Thursday (Is the fair over yet?) Since I'm now righting this post three months late there is only one thing I remember about Thursday. RANCH RODEO, I remember feeling so giddy all day long. I have competed in the ranch rodeo for years, but this year seemed different? I don't know but I had mentally prepared for this event for weeks. I had rounded up a bunch of girls so that I could  have an all girls team. I of course invited the BF- Mckell. Next, I went out on a limb. I met these sisters on facebook. I secretly stocked them on there for weeks, just to see who they were. I sent them both a message asking if they would be interested. They said they would LOVE TO! So joined the Keetch girls in my ranch rodeo wolf pack. Gussie and Kricket are the BOMB! Mckell, Gussie, Kricket, and I (JaBoe) were a team made in the branding corral. We all have very of the chart names and that's what makes us cowboy-girls so unique. We had never really officially met until Gus and Krick pulled up in the arena parking lot. You would have thought it was a bunch of sisters on the team because we all just clicked! Talking about our favorite singer Adrian Buckaroogirl, talking about jeans, boots, and scarfs, of course giggling to the point of no return. We sat upon our giddy ups, bringing class and sense to the ranch rodeo that night. That was probably the best night of my life so far. We ended up in the middle of the pack, but against all men teams we felt very satisfied with our accomplishments.
Friday- Was a blur- I did something every second of the day but just cant remember. I was still living off the high from the night before. I did however, become a ring stewart for the livestock auction that night. What a blast!
Saturday- I showed horses at the morning horse show. Mattie showed her pony. We skipped the derby that night and went to a rodeo. Thats all I can really remember.
The Fair- till we meet again.

DIY stocking holder

    Tonights project was me digging thru dirt and spiders to gather some old picket fence. I have a ton! There is so many fun things I have planned for this fence so definitly stay tuned!
    Project #1 with the picket = stocking holder. This was constructed of the odds and ends of the broken  pieces. I just took some nails and tacked it together. I will also be putting some hooks on tomorrow when I have time to dig thru my stash. I am going to make some cute new burlap stockings, but thats a tutorial for another post.
     I also want to post about my Christmas tree. Its still not done and neither is my tree skirt, but its getting there. This is our country christmas home. I enjoy this time of the year so much! Hot coco, shopping, sledding, and family get togethers. I love my families traditions and I love starting new ones. (again another post for another time) Any who- Im off to study away into the late hours of the night. Sweet dreams.

Tuesday, November 27, 2012

SHEEP!!!

It all started on Facebook one fine day. I was browsing some local yard sale sites and came across a herd of 20 sheep for sale. With out thinking I called my mum and asked her if she was interested. You see us crazy folk run a little buckaroo rodeo for the town of Levan, pop. 500. It is always a struggle to find sheep for all of our sheep riders. Logically I thought it was perfect to buy the sheep and just use them for the rodeo and then resell. Well the mum wasn't interested, so I let it go. Two days later my sister called me wanting to get some more information on the sheep. Me, being gun-ho on new projects was all excited. My sister ended up buying the sheep and so began our sheep legacy!
Now a bit of background on us garrett girls! We have always been cattle gals! Never in our life have we had to take care of sheep. Not even a bummer lamb. Yes, we have had our fair share of a funny farm with our horses, chickens, goats, dogs, cows, and even a one eared pony. BUT NEVER, EVER have we had sheep. How hard could it be though right? We had a game plan to just shuffle them around to our neighbors empty pastures and take care of them that way. We would haul them to rodeos for all the little sheep riders, hence making our way to the stock contracting bigs. We would sell some lambs for the folks in juab county to show at the fair, the list was endless as to what we could do with these sheep.
Day 1- of the sheep- Loading was a easy! We got this in the Bag! Unloading- was easy we got this in the bag X's 2!
Day 2-(hell) 5am- phone call from neighbors (sheep are out). Me and hailee with our expert cow herding skills thought we could jump on horses and accomplish the task- WRONG! It took us an hour to even get them to look at the in gate and another hour to get them in.
Still day 2- Jaboe and Hailee while at their place of work recieve phone calls about the SHEEP being out. They dash home to chase the sheep around for hours!.
Day3-15- millions of phone calls about sheep being out. Us chasing them for hours upon hours on horses, dirt bikes, fourwheelers, flipflops, and bikes.
Day 16- WE NEED A SHEEP DOG!
Day 17- moving pastures, to much chasing the sheep around levan to even care anymore, do we own a gun?
Day 18- Finally found a pen that the sheep will stay put in! Thank goodness!
Day 20- I quit!